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April 20th, 2025: Easter today, I woke up at 6:00am with my nice cat cuddled in my arm but I had to get her to move so I could get up and get dressed, I wanted to get dressed up extra fancy for Easter mass but I couldn't access my old room because my aunt was sleeping in there so I just put on dress pants and my pseudoleather jacket. I was going to go to the 7:30am mass more in the city but then I had a change of heart and decided to go to the one I used to go to in my hometown back when my other grandma (not Jane) would come to visit my family. I then had a bowl of cereal for breakfast before I left at 8:30am while saying bye to my dad, my grandpa, and my grandma, grandma Jane then said to me:
"Make sure to pray for us at mass, as your Programmer Uncle would say: 'the unwashed'"
I replied:
"Don't worry, I won't forget to pray for the 'unwashed'!"
I then drove to the mass and got to the parking lot, I ended up having to park as far away as possible from the entrance to the church. I walked in there and saw that all of the pews were as packed as possible and there was this one guy in a cyan button-up and a purple tie bringing out those beige colored metal folding chairs and putting them out for the others that were there. I helped him with a few and then I sat down for the mass. The whole mass was interesting and I heard a lot more children than usual. The priest did the thing where he went around and splashed holy water on the people and yet again, I managed to be missed by any of the water. The homily was about the 1997 movie Good Will Hunting and how Will's friend would constantly hope that when he knocked on Will's door to take him to work at his construction job, he would be gone off to a better place to utilize his skills better. While I was waiting to go up for communion, I saw my Freshman year of high school Health teacher and her two daughters, one in the grade above me and one in my current grade. I remember one time near the end of the year the teacher was moving rooms and wanted to get rid of a bunch of stuff and there was this set of books from the 1980s called the New Encyclopedia of Knowledge, they were all green hardcover books that corresponded to a certain letter of the alphabet with one serving as an index, I wanted all of them but the teacher's curly-haired assistant wanted them so we then reached a compromise and I got roughly 2/3rds of the books and she got the rest, I stuffed a lot of them into my backpack and carried the rest. Dean thought I was crazy for carrying all of them in my backpack. I took them home and my mom ended up putting a few in the bathrooms to read. Anyways I eventually get done with them mass and I see Xebec's father across the church and walk over to them, I see the health teacher again, her daughters, and now her son and husband and say hi to them. I then get to Xebec's father and I say hi to him and we chat a bit, I see Xebec's two younger sisters and Xebec's mother and say hi to all of them and ask them where he is.
"Ohh, he's attending Easter mass up in Green Bay with his girlfriend, he'll be back next week! And say hello to your father for me!"
He replied.
"I'll be back by then but I will say hi to my dad for you!"
I replied. I then got out of the church and started my drive to the gas station I used to work at but then I got a text from my mom asking me to pick up some fresh Italian parsley and rosemary, so I drove over to the grocery store and walked around for a bit until I realized I had skipped the fresh vegetable section and walked back to get the Italian parsley, I had to ask an employee where the rosemary was and he pointed it out to me but I noticed that it was empty so he went into the back to grab some and then gave it to me, I went to the self checkout and paid for it before driving back home. On the drive back home I made a quick prayer for 'the unwashed' as my grandma had requested. When I got home I noticed the entire family was there eating waffles for breakfast so I had one. Jared arrived shortly after I got home and he ate his waffle, after breakfast he started playing Balatro and recommended that I play it, even offering to get me on their Apple Arcade family plan so I could play it for free, I just passed and then we started to play Monopoly. There were 7 people playing monopoly, Jane, my sister, me, my aunt, Thing Alpha, Thing Beta, and Jared. I didn't get a good start and only managed to acquire two properties, Connecticut Avenue (which I traded away to Jared for free rent on all light blue) and Indiana Avenue. I didn't like my luck and how long it took to get to my turn so I just quit in the middle of the game, my sister told me I shouldn't but I put my money back in the bank at that point so it was official. I then went upstairs for a bit to write my blog entry for a bit and then I got called downstairs by my mom to set the table for lunch. I then overheard my sister saying:
"Gemerson will only play a game if he knows he could win!"
I didn't say anything about that falsehood, I just didn't like how slow and humiliating my loss would have been. To be honest I am not that good when it comes to competing with others in all aspects of life so I just try to focus on cooperation. I always feel like the laughingstock when at home and I would have rather attended Mercurius's baptism that happened yesterday. I went back upstairs to cuddle with the good cat until my mom called me down to set the table for an early dinner, I got it set but then I was told to help polish the silverware by my mom that she got from her Grandpa. I wasn't happy for a bit but polishing all the knives, forks, and spoons was actually pretty fun. After that we do our Easter egg hunt where the adults and the kids are split up into two teams to find 19 of our eggs (small ones for kids, large ones for adults) we end up finding all but 1 of our eggs so we lost. I bring the good cat up to Thing Alpha and then we have dinner at 3:15pm because Thing Alpha and Thing Beta have to catch a train. At one point I accidentally knocked over an empty glass and a good amount of them started to act like I actually spilled something.
"Gemerson!"
I got pissed:
"Why are you all acting like I spilt something, I didn't ok!"
"We're just joking!"
They replied.
"Just stop it ok!"
I exclaimed, I then walked out of the living room and took a short breather in my parent's bedroom, I tried to be friendly with the mean cat but she just ran under the bed, I went back and just tried to stay silent for most of the meal so they couldn't have anything to mock me with, I sat in between my grandpa and my dad and actually enjoyed the meal. Dessert was chocolate peach cobbler with homemade chocolate sauce on top and I loved it. Finally it was time for my haircut as I had been delaying it for so long, and my mom cut it to be shorter, but I wish I had gotten my haircut at the barber in town because it had been so long since I have seen him, my mom put rosemary oil into my hair to make it 'grow' faster and grandma Jane talked about how her father would call stuff like that 'foo-foo oil'. Eventually my cousins left and then my aunt, my grandpa, and my grandma left so I wished them all a farewell and then worked on my C programming assignment only to have its due date pushed back to the end of Monday, I contacted my group about the interview proof and Chappell said:
<I will transfer it from my phone to my computer and then we can submit it as a group
I then was about to take a shower until I realized that I had already done so earlier today and then I went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Alejandro - Lady Gaga (2009)
 
April 21st, 2025: I woke up REAL early at somewhere around 3:05am, I had this dream where I worked in this early-20th century building that was 20 stores at an office job, I worked on the second floor and my friend worked on the 3rd floor, eventually it made the news that the 3rd floor of the tower collapsed on itself (none of the floors above it were affected somehow) and my friend worked on the 3rd floor, I went around desperately looking for her but I ended up finding out she was ok so I was glad. Anyways I woke up and browsed my phone and found out that Pope Francis died today at the age of 89, so at 3:13am I texted the Wednesday morning breakfast groupchat:
>Pope Francis died.
😢

Some guy with a 262 area code that I didn't know that wasn't Mercurius or Seraphim (the recent father) texted in the groupchat:
<May he rest in peace with the Lord our God.
<Genuinely sad right now, but thank you for letting us know
I woke up later and then had some cereal while my dad was working remotely and he consoled me about the loss of the Pope. I finished up getting packed to take the bus and said bye to my mom and my sister and cats. At 9:35am my dad drove me to the bus stop and I got on the bus which got to the station at 11:30am, the bus back home took a really long time to get there and I felt like I nearly got pick-pocketed twice along the way. I eventually got back at 12:10pm and I completed this machine learning quiz I had to do and then walked over to the Catholic center because there was an announcement about a noon mass there, I checked through all of my texts and couldn't find anything so I just assumed it was a nothingburger. So I went home, I later found out that it wasn't a complete nothingburger because I forgot to check on GroupMe, I walked to my first class only to find it was canceled and I forgot to check the notifications. I then went home and played more modded Terraria until it came time for me to go to my second class. I saw Lizzo along the way in a tie-dye t-shirt outside but I just held my head down, the guy from Holy Thursday mass was in class and I said hi to him. I even caught an error in the slideshow for the class when it said TensorFlow was available only for Python 3.11 when they actually released support for 3.12. I then went back home after that class and started cleaning up a bunch because there was a showing for my apartment from 4:30pm to 4:45pm, Enosh was in there just sitting on the couch doing absolutely nothing with his mess in the living room being untouched. I packed up my art supplies and left to go to my art class. In art class Keleche was complaining because he dropped his paintbrush down the sink while I overheard Ginger girl talking about her life and stuff, I fucked up the color blending but Pinky's painting was amazing in all respect. I then walked home and I asked Enosh how the tour went, he said that it was ok and I told him that he should have cleaned up beforehand, he immediately got defensive and said that I never told him so I apologized. To be honest, I wish I was there because I wanted to see his reaction to being outed as a slob and him finally having to experience consequences for his actions for once in his entire life. I didn't have any lunch or dinner so just before I took a shower, I ate some mixed nuts from the cupboard and then took my shower and then tried to go to sleep but Enosh was watching this movie really loudly in his room with the light on, but I got to sleep anyway.

Song of the Day: From The Morning - Nick Drake (1972)
 
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April 22nd, 2025: Woke up at 8:00am and finished off my cereal, I then went to the coffee shop I frequent to get some coffee and then I went elsewhere to study for my test today but got annoyed by this old lady sitting nearby constantly coughing. I then went back home and then went to my first class of the day. At 11:42am I had this conversation in the groupchat:
>Ready for the test today?
<Lots of things to read - the South Korean
<Yeah, I kinda just skimmed through the slides on that one lol - Nintendo fan
<Use Ai to summarize - the South Korean
>I have German now
>When I was studying this woman wouldn’t stop coughing…
<Ugh. That’s the worst - Nintendo fan
>I wasn’t near her, but I already live with enough of the audio equivalent to Chinese water torture.
I got through my class as normal and Quentin even complimented me on my haircut. I then walked over to my second class and got some Low Carb Monster Energy because I had never tried it before. I was told to move to the front so it would be easier for the teacher to monitor our tests and the test started. I put a bunch of my pencils and pens out next to me looking for the mechanical pencil that I needed and started thinking about how I could theoretically help another person cheat by using the positioning of pencils and pens. The test was actually really easy and it consisted of 15 multiple choice questions with 4 possible answers for each, I first thought about positioning pencils to convey the answer, if I pointed a pencil in 1 of 8 directions I could theoretically use two pencils to convey the answers to 3 questions, needing 10 pencils total, but if I did a pen or a pencil facing 1 of 8 directions I could cover 2 answers to questions using one piece of information, then it got on to calculators and the ones where you can display numbers and letters, where with a period and an exclamation point added to the roster I could convey 3 answers in one piece of information, needing 5 characters (but I would probably think of substitutions for similar looking characters) I had a TI-30XIIS in my backpack (but no calculators on the test) that could do the numbers 0 through 9 and +, -, /, x, ., and (, for 2 answers for one character and 11 characters displayed so enough to help someone cheat on the test in full. Anyways I got back home and made some Mac n cheese for lunch because of how early I got out and then worked on my blog entry for the day. I ended up going to the Catholic Center early and when I got there I decided to vacuum the hallway and even found this spider toy that I put back. I vacuumed upstairs while Henry was there and even saw his girlfriend. I continued vacuuming while talking with the Honduran and he made a joke saying:
“Men aren’t supposed to be covering their hair during mass.”
I replied with another:
“But women are supposed to veil for it, but I’m curious if wearing a hat counts.”
He then laughed knowing exactly who I was referring to. I then went downstairs and kept reading this book on all the popes. A bit later I said hi to Gabriel and even saw the Honduran practicing to be a lector by reading out loud. The priest then sent this group of us a text saying:
<Hey could two of you serve?
I volunteered to be the crucifer and later Mercurius volunteered. I lit all the candles except the stations of the cross and then went through mass while making less mistakes. The mass was in remembrance of Pope Francis so he talked about that during his homily and his humble life during a time from after the Second Vatican council to 1975ish where the church was swinging between being super liberal and kinda conservative, he mentioned there being a photo of a piñata in the chapel from that period, and also mentioned Pen Guy. In the crowd I saw the Sydney Sweeney girl, Lauren (without Bartholomew), Gabriel, Markus, Henry, the woman from my church who usually wears a beret, and some people from the seminary I visited a while bac. For the singing I could hear Lauren’s voice stand out from the crowd more than usual. (because less people than the Sunday mass we go to) Mercurius accidentally dropped some of the coals and we just cleaned that up but I forgot to put the chalice back onto the table next to the altar. After we proceeded back outside the chapel after mass I shook hands and greeted people and told them to come to the dinner, I shook the hand of the Sydney Sweeney lookalike but she didn’t come to dinner and I then went around snuffing out the candles and putting everything back. I got changed into my normal clothes and then waited in line for dinner, Benjamin joined us and I got a brat with a lot of ketchup and sat next to Markus, the Honduran, and this guy who I will be calling Mahdi. I talked with them for a bit and wandered around and even said hi to Pen Guy until Punk came in later, I saw them eating their hamburger by dipping it into ketchup, I joked about that with them and asked if they were feeling ok at the meeting with the Archbishop and they said they were fine, at one point I dropped a mention that I knew where they lived when they were talking about where they got their jacket (they found it on a street and I thought as in “I found it among the litter” not “garage sale but in the street”) and they asked me semi-defensively:
“How do you know where I live?”
I then replied:
“Well you remember when you gave me that flier for the breakfasts. Well I went there a few times and the pastor there mentioned that you lived there.”
They immediately lost all of their defensiveness and even complimented me on my hat, I later found out her last name and even told her mine and then I left the place to walk home. Rama and his girlfriend (who I will be calling Sita) posted about this terrorist attack in Jammu and Kashmir that happened today which killed 25 Hindus. I got home and started working on this homework due tomorrow in the afternoon and made some good progress before I finally decided to call it quits and go to sleep after my shower.

Song of the Day: Kashmir - Led Zeppelin (1975)
 
April 23rd, 2025: I woke up extra early today and the first thing I did was to continue powering through my homework that was due at 1:00pm. I made some progress with the dependencies being set up for the thing before I had to head over to the Catholic Center for men's breakfast. I got there a bit early before the place was even unlocked and had to wait outside until the priest came around and let me in, Seraphim came in a short time later and the priest had me work on the coffee and Seraphim on the scrambled eggs. Seraphim then says to me:
"I have a leather jacket that I could give you, a real one, because I noticed that yours is starting to rip!"
I replied:
"Yeah sure, that would be excellent!"
Mercurius then came in later and finally Mahdi while he was reading this print out of one of the letters by Nestorius to Saint Cyril of Alexandria, I wasn't sure which one but he talked about Nestorius being a Heretic. We ate the scrambled eggs and sausage patties and discussed Question 53 of the Summa Theologae and we pretty much cruised through it. Mercurius mentioned wanting to go to this one Serbian Orthodox church and Seraphim joked about how the church he was talking about was described as being super Serbian. I do some readings for the stuff and we ended up completing the discussion quite early. The engaged girl came in to sit in a different room for a while and on the way out I waived to her and she waved to me back.
[Everything below this line was rewritten from memory]
I went home and finished up my assignment that was due at 1:00pm and I finally got the dependencies working, so I wrote up the accompanying report and then submitted them both and continued to play some modded Terraria. I could have gone to the breakfast event that Kate had invited me to but it would have been creepy so I didn't do it. I went to my first class of the day because I thought I would have to do the quiz, but when I got there I found out it was just going to be about learning how pipes work in the C programming language, I then left and decided to go home for the day and get some food to eat before heading to my art class real early. When I got there I started to finish up my painting because it was due at 5:00pm but I messed up the blending which really sucked a lot. But when class started I had my thing all put up and I put mine on the left side of the wall where Pinky put hers near mine and Keleche decided to put his in-between ours, but the teacher told him he had to move it. Our first event of the day was to go over to the collections thing we went to previously and look at some books which were meant to be viewed as art. I found some pieces of art that were interesting.

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While there were other pieces of art that I found disgusting and kind of degenerate.

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The house book reminded me of that one meme about how people view the 1950s:

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When I went to pick up the postcard book, Ginger girl told me that she found the book to have subverted her expectations and be super interesting for her to read. We then left after a while and went back to do the art critique, because mine was all the way on the left, I went first and here's what happened for my critique:
<"I really like how for the rectangles on the left, they were made to look like lazer eyes. I really like how abstract it feels. You can see how it changed from the initial thing to the final painting, it's more grassy." - Keleche.
^"It looks more grassy?" - The Teacher.
<"Yeah, compared to the collage." - Keleche.
^"The texture could be a bit more subtle for the green stuff on the bottom. A little bit closer in color to the base color maybe so it doesn't stand out as much." - The Teacher.
<"I think the complimentary colors were a really strong choice especially since it's like a true red and a true green and it is such a strong contrast from each other, I don't know, it just like really draws your attention and forces you to look at it, and then I think the little accents of blue really tie it together, if it was just red and green it would be too much but the blue sorta gives your eye a little break. I feel like this doesn't make since but the background color is so intense in its constrast to each other and it draws your eyes to the face because it's a resting point." - Ginger girl.
^"Yeah I agree, I think it's really smart to keep this more achromatic almost as a place to rest and everything else is so intense." - The Teacher.
After that humiliation ritual was done. We critiqued some more before we had to head back home because the gallery exhibit went too late. I had some dinner, took a shower, and then went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Private Idaho - The B-52's (1980)
 
April 24th, 2025: Final day of classes for the week, I woke up at 8:00am and went down to the convenience store to buy some cereal for my breakfast, I ate that and then decided to walk to the coffee shop to work on my German homework there, I had the misfortune of overhearing the fat girl and the Asian girl who complained about short men asking her out talking about their misunderstanding of Christian theology (except for the rapture not being real) and the fat girl started talking about her experience with massive cocks and I wanted so badly to waterboard her in holy water, she talked about losing weight again but you could tell she's one of those fat girls who try to lose weight so that they can get even more attention from men than they already get. I started working on my German homework in class when I realized that it would require me to record myself speaking into the microphone so I just went back home and then recorded the stuff there, I stayed there for a bit until my group project group chat discussed getting together to work on the slides, so I went back and bought a donut to eat. The only person to show up at the time was the Nintendo fan and that was as I was leaving to go to my German class. I walked over there and did some partner discussion projects but at the end the teacher reminded us of the project where we had to interview a friend and I didn't really have any friends that I could interview. I then left and along the way I saw Macie talking loudly about something with her friend. I then said to her:
"Macie we can all hear you!"
And she replied to me:
"Oh hi Gemerson!"
I then walk to the building where I was going to be volunteering for the setup and I realized that I had some time to kill so I went to a nearby restaurant and bought a large pretzel and some cheese sauce for lunch and I ate it before heading up to the place to start setting up, I saw Asherah's boss and I talked with her a bit before I started with the propping up of the easel stands. A bit later none other than Asherah comes in and I say hi to her and she says hi back, but she ended up going with the other group of people opening up easel stands and saw her talking to her friends over there, I was getting kind of upset so I just took some deep breaths, a bit later she takes an empty cart that contained some easel stands over to my side just as we empty our cart so I go over to her and apologize for the pancake incident:
"Hey Asherah, I'm very sorry about the pancakes thing."
She replies:
"It's ok!"
"I thought that you found it weird and off-putting because of your reaction."
"No it was just that you jumpscared me by appearing at my work."
(Note, it mostly consists of lounging around, in the few times I have been to her workspace I have never seen her do actual work.)
"You told me where you worked!"
I then continued to work on putting the easel stands in their respective spots with Asherah nearby so I then strike up another conversation, but before that you need to know some definitions:
Manichaeism: A Gnostic belief system that believes in a dualistic cosmology of opposites, it's founder is the prophet Mani (April 216 AD - March 2nd, 274 AD) who proclaims that he is a prophet in the likes of Zoroaster, the Buddha, and Jesus. It combines a lot of elements of different religions and you can see why I call it "The first new age religion". It is currently extinct.
Mandaeism: A different Gnostic belief system that claims to be descended from John the Baptist, it stresses the importance of Baptism, which they perform very frequently, they claim to be the true followers of John the Baptist's teachings and that Jesus was actually a bad person (one, if not the only Gnostic religion to think so) and corrupted the faith. They are identified as the Sabeans from the Quran, they are first attested to have come about in c. 200 AD with Shlama beth Qidra being the first attested Mandaean priest, but could possibly be just slightly older than Christianity. They view the material world as a "Boring waiting room" according to TV Tropes. The only Gnostic group to exist into the modern era and are mostly found in Sweden because of the 2003 invasion of Iraq.
I said to Asherah:
"Wait are you still doing your research on the Cathars?"
I asked her.
"Oh no I'm not"
"Well I was going to get you a funny gift."
I then got my phone and looked up Against Heresies and then showed her an image of the book, she chuckled a bit.
"Well he mostly attacks Gnostic beliefs so I thought it would be fitting."
I explained.
"But there Gnostics are gone!"
She said, so I corrected her:
"No no no, the Mandaeans still exist today, they are the ones who claim to be the followers of John the Baptist and they're mostly in the Middle East."
"But weren't most Gnostics Manichaeans?"
"The Manichaeans are different from the Mandaeans, only one is still around. The Manichaeans are like the oldest 'new age religion'"
She didn't even get it.
"What are you talking about, they're Christian, not some new age religion."
"No, the Mandaeans believe Jesus was a false prophet."
"The Manichaeans worshiped Jesus!"
"Yeah but they aren't Christian."
After that she went to the other side of the room and put up easels so I started putting up easels on my side of the room, next was to put four clips on each of the easels, I got a bucket of clips from Asherah and she touched my hand and I flinched a bit. I put the clips on the easels pretty fast, a bit into it Khadija and I were working on the same row and converging in on each other, whereas I had the bucket, she was using her shirt as a pouch to hold them, I felt sad for her so I just gave her my bucket. I then went over to Asherah to tell her that I would be rooming with Quoc and she was kind of surprised, I told her that I thought it was an upgrade from my current roommate Enosh and she said I was completely understandable. The last part was numbering all the easel stands and Asherah partnered up with this other girl. I then talked to Asherah's boss and said that I had to leave for my lab and she replied:
"Oh no worries, we're just about done so we won't need any more help! And you're coming to the event tomorrow right?"
I replied:
"Absolutely!"
I then walked over to my lab and stayed there early, the teacher's assistant there was South Asian and there was the whole thing about the escalation of the conflict between India and Pakistan so i was tempted to ask him his thoughts on it but decided against it. Our lab was on pipes in C and I got done in like 30 minutes so I went back to the room for the event afterwards to see if they were still setting up but they were actually being honest. I then went over to the group project slides discussion meeting spot and I talked with Chappell for a bit and she discussed giving either the South Korean or I one of the two parts left. She talked about this love chain she was in at the bar she wanted to work at where her friend was crushing on this guy who was crushing on Chappell in turn, and the guy knows the girl likes her. Chappell had to leave for her job shortly afterwards so I then left after that. I saw Pen Guy on my way home and asked for some free pens and he was delighted to give me some. I then walked home and had a shot of Limoncello and hopped on the farms to post. I then made some lunch and Enosh went somewhere else as I then felt kind of bad and drank another shot of Limoncello, I gamed a bit more and then decided to go to this comedy event that Enosh was going to. At the event, there was this Black lady who was serving as an opener and her first act was her talking about how rich men would fly her coworkers out and she talked about wanting to go to Dubai, saying that:
"Miami wasn't enough for me, I'm tired of domestic soil."
I got so appalled at her degeneracy that I just walked home. When I got back home I asked the Catholic Center priest this question over text at 6:16pm:
>I heard a rumor that a Catholic Organization bought the [church near me] and the Catholic center would be moving into there
He replied at 6:19pm:
<It is true but the rumor is missing some details... We are in the process of it but it is not a done deal just yet.
>Ohh, I have never seen anybody go in there.
<They do most of their stuff on the weekends
<They are not closing but they will be looking for a new home more out in the suburbs.
I then decided to go on a walk, I made my way around to the place that a famous lolcow lived and took a picture with the pen and paper that Pen Guy gave me in front of his house but I could tell there was a light on. So I then walked up the street and as I was doing so, I saw this car part next to a parking meter and out comes the lolcow in question, I then went to the restaurant and ordered this custard blend thing that I loved as dessert and ate it all before walking back the way I came, I then decided to take a picture of his car because I couldn't believe it, but when I continued walking forward, I FOUND OUT HE WAS SITTING IN THE DRIVERS SEAT WHEN I TOOK THE PICTURE FROM BEHIND. I panicked and then took a long detour home before finally arriving back at home. I took a shower and then got out and drank a beer before completing this German reflection assignment I had and then went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Hold Back the Rain - Duran Duran (1982)
 
Finished transcribing all the entries from March 8th, 2024 to April 19th, 2025 and linked the Google Doc.

The word count is: 151363
 
April 25th, 2025: Really hectic day today. I woke up at 7:00am and found out that soyjak.blog was gone to my dismay, so I started off the day by posting my stuff from over there to here based off of what I have archived, I managed to get my April 20th, 2025 posts up to my April 22nd posts transcribed here but I was still missing part of my April 23rd post because I didn't archive page 62 of my blog before soyjak.blog had shut down, so I first finished my April 24th post and then I worked on recreating my April 23rd post until roughly 8:30am when it was roughly around the time I had to go to the big event that I was setting up for yesterday, I ended up getting there at 8:55am and I saw Asherah and her boss standing at the table and they both waived to me so I waived back. I went up to Asherah and said to her:
“What are you doing?”
She replied:
“I’m supposed to be giving out name tags for people presenting in the career fair.”
I saw that there was some name tags that were blank so I decided to write my name down on one but cross out the part that said presenter. Asherah did not like that at all.
“Dude I’m trying to do my job!”
She said with like one or two people waiting to grab their name tag while I was standing off to the side, I was pissed off at her:
“Dude, why are you acting like such an asshole to me, not even now but like in the past.”
And I just went away, I looked at the presentations for a bit before the guilt of lashing out at Asherah got to me and I went back to her, I tried to go to apologize to her the first time but I saw a friend with her who I knew was a friend because he was standing with Asherah and did not work with her. I went back inside and talked with this guy about his Zebrafish presentation. He talked about how it revolved around how adding Lego bricks into a Zebrafish’s fish tank resulted in increased cognitive ability and less anxiety in the fist (basically swimming around in circles in a fish tank when tested) and I finally went back out and went over to Asherah and apologized, she accepted my apology and then I went back in. My next presentation I saw was this old “friend” of mine presenting their thing on weather and climate change and I was internally furious at them but I managed to hold it back. I then walked around and encountered Elinor’s presentation and I addressed her by her full name (on the poster) and she managed to get my full first name right (but not my middle or last name) and she was super enthusiastic about her presentation even though I hardly knew what she was saying about anything until the end when I finally figured it out and it made sense what she was talking about. The next one I went to was a presentation about glazes. After the glazes one I then went to Khadija’s and she talked about hers quite a bit and we made some jokes about it, I told her about my familiarity with the topic from my internship I took. The next one I went to was this one on a hypothetical plan to stop binge drinking. At 10:49am I got a text saying:
<Hey do you want to serve for Mass again at noon? Get some more good practice in
I then stopped by Asherah’s place and asked her if she wanted me to grab her some lunch that they were serving because she was stuck at the booth but she passed. My final stop was one of Asherah’s friend’s that I had mentioned in a previous entry and he gave a good presentation while being fashionably dressed. I then left to head over to the Catholic center and arrived pretty early. When I got there I saw the engaged girl and this other guy in this room and I noticed the trashes were full so I asked them if they knew where the garbages and garbage bags were and the engaged girl showed me. I cleaned up a bit more and then went downstairs and god all dressed for mass. I did pretty well and the priest said that this was my best one yet except for bringing the water to clean the chalice just before receiving the Eucharist and also receiving the Eucharist on the tongue but not kneeling. I then cleaned up and walked back home to game some more. I packed up all sheets on my bed to bring it to the laundry to wash but the washer was half-flooded and a motor broke apparently so I brought it down for nothing. I wasn’t going to dinner tonight with Joseph because he told me he was out of town. So at 6:15pm I heated up leftovers for dinner and then walked over to the Catholic center to get picked up by the priest to go to the dance event. We get there and it feels kind of empty, the girls and guys (aka Seraphim, Markus, Mahdi, and I, but Gabriel was also there) just socialize separately. Mahdi was at one point having issues with getting his credit card to pay for the $5.00 ticket so I just gave him a 5 dollar bill and he thanked me. We eventually get called to square dance for our first round and end up partnering up with this girl I sort of knew from the Catholic center and Mahdi partnered up with Markus, after learning the basics and getting warmed up to socializing we then did a second round of dancing, I partnered up with a different woman I hardly knew while Mahdi and Markus were partnered up still. We got better at square dancing and then I had to leave after the second round to go to Dungeons and Dragons, I got to the library with 2 people there but it was locked so we then went to the dorms and I got put on as a guest for one of my players and we had to move multiple times to find a good spot, James didn’t show up because he was back home but 4 people in total showed up and I guided them through character creation for a while. I saw Lara and said hi to her and we wrapped up at 10:45pm so I could go home and take a shower, then finally go to sleep, but the events of the day really took a toll on me and I was debating if I should write Asherah’s boss an email apologizing for the incident today.

Song of the Day: Dancing Queen - ABBA (1974)
 
April 26th, 2025: A really meh day today, I did wake up at 7:00am because of my alarm, I finished off my cereal for my breakfast and brewed some coffee, I was still racked by guilt from yesterday so I just decided to get it out of the way and I wrote Asherah’s boss an apology email saying:
>I need to apologize for acting both weird and rude to one of your employees during the [name of event] on Friday, April 25th while she was just trying to do her job.
I sent it at 8:15am and I had to remind myself throughout the day not to panic because she wasn’t going to open her email on a Saturday. I got dressed for work and then hopped on the bus and took it to work. I got to work a bit early and I looked at my task list and the weekly schedule to find out that Jesse finally found another person to work on Sundays until closing, I was so happy. I worked on my normal tasks for the day, saw Folsade and Biker talk about mushrooms at one point, talked with Sabrina and she talked about being let out of work early, and also talked to fAsherah, I told fAsherah what a lowcow is and she started laughing. Hoxha came into work at one point and we said hi to each other. For lunch I heated up some Mac n Cheese and found out soyjak.blog was finally back up, so I posted some of my blog entries on there. I remember seeing Mr. Medici even when the original owner wasn’t there, Old Ozzy Osborne I saw getting coffee a bit later on. I had sadly re-installed dating apps but I had gotten a match that went to the same college as me, she told me about working on campus at a job and was earning $11.90 an hour because she got some raises, I asked how much and she said they were only 20 cents at maximum twice per year. I said hi to Lebanon a few times. At one point near closing I heard Matt say in a high pitched voice:
“Hi Gemerson!”
With two other people laughing, I looked around the glass display to see him hiding behind it and I could tell he was expecting me to look through the glass to see him. I found it quite funny to be honest. While I was working on beverages I accidentally knocked over a 6 pack of glass bottles and had to sweep up the glass and then mop it up, but Jesse helped with the mopping and told me I could take the 2 bottles that weren’t broken, I tried to open one to no avail. I then got started on closings and thought it would be nice to give one to fAsherah. I took the bus home and once I got home I had to call Enosh to ask him to let me in, he did thankfully. I tried opening the bottle with the can opener in my Swiss Army knife and it just pierced the metal instead of getting it off, I just drank it like that and then went on a long walk. I thought I was getting followed by this guy walking his dog at one point so I went into this alleyway and then started running loudly down it and then walked quietly to throw him off that my house was in that alley. Looking back on that I don’t actually think he was following me. I went to the convenience store and got some mint chocolate chip ice cream and I saw that the cashier didn’t look to be so happy so I decided to be extra nice to them and they got a bit happier. I went home and got myself a bowl of ice cream and then cleaned up my room a bit before going to sleep.

Song of the Day: The Passenger - Siouxie and the Banshees (1987)
 
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April 27th, 2025: Work for me today, I woke up and made some soft boiled eggs and toast for breakfast, for the eggs I grabbed two of my shot glasses at random to see which ones I would get, I grabbed the Indiana one and the Michigan one and then because I didn't have any jam, I put peanut butter on my toast. I then got on the bus and took it to work, I saw my new hire and he looked pretty Brazilian and seemed friendly, I got a walkie-talkie from Jesse and he told me that there was an issue with it that fAsherah told him about. I saw fAsherah early on and pointed to her and she pointed to me until we were so close that our fingers were less than an inch from each other's faces, she then touched my nose and I backed off, she told me:
"Agressor!"
I replied with:
"You touched my nose first!"
She exclaimed:
"You're a coward"
We both laughed. I then powered through mosts of my tasks, I saw this one woman hugging her husband from behind while I was stocking the shelves. When I went to empty the cardboard for the bakery becuase theirs was getting full, I got told:
"Thank you Gemerson!"
by two of the different bakery workers which made me feel happier. I continued doing stuff around the store with my tasks until it came time for my lunch break. I remember sitting in the break room while fAsherah and Mr. Blundstones were also on their break. fAsherah talked about her step dad and the cats that she had but I just sat there eating my lunch that I had to pay for all by myself because the original owner is still on vacation. I then went back to work with my next task being to make a pull list for a portion of the house, my printout ended up being 2 pages long and Jesse made a bet with me that I wouldn't be able to find more than a third of the items on the list, I accepted his bet and then went looking around for all the items I could. There was 60 items on the list and I ended up finding 24 so I won the bet for a grand total of 0 dollars and 0 cents as compensation. All I got was the text:
<Thanks!
I then went down and put all of the stuff on the shelf. I still felt anxious about my email I sent to Asherah's boss but I kept having to remind myself that she wasn't going to read it on a Sunday. I got a call from Chappell later on in the day in our groupchat but the South Korean and I were both at work and we had to remind her that. I went on my second break and sat with fAsherah and told her all about the lolcow that I was referencing, she found it quite fascinating and told me that her uncle was a judge and that she had experiences with a lot of men similar to the lolcow growing up in this tiny ass town. I had to complete my final task for the day once my break ended, and I still had a bunch of time left so I decided to start chilling out and then I got started on my closing tasks and then left. I saw the other employee was still finishing his tasks, but when I got on the bus at 5:00pm, I saw this girl that I knew from college, she turned 31 on December 31st of last year and we talked a bit, I got home and then got dressed for church to see Enosh making dinner but he said it would take multiple hours. I got to church and talked with Joseph, Raphael and Lucas were servers and Raphaela was there, I went downstairs afterwards for the cafe thing and talked to Isaiah a bit and found out he did a lot of cooking ever since he was 7 years old. I then walked home to find an absolute mess in the kitchen. I was pissed off, but I worked on the presentation that was due tonight while Chappell was being absolutely unclear on what I had to do and was yelling at the South Korean, she seemed to favor me more and I had to stay up until I got this text:
<Also it's fine gemerson it'll be quicker for me to just cite my images. Get some sleep I'll be up.
I heeded her command and went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Precious and Grace - ZZ Top (1973)
 
April 28th, 2025: Holy fucking cannoli I was woken up at 1:04am because Chappell called me to complain about her issues with the South Korean not understanding his part in the group assignment. It lasted 10 minutes and she nearly broke down crying multiple times, I had to console her a few times and then try to get back to sleep. I finally woke up at a normal time and worked more on the presentation until I decided to walk over to this place that had pancakes, eggs, and bacon as a part of a $6.99 deal, I asked for sunny side up eggs with my deal but the girl at the counter said they only did scrambled. I took that and then paid and went outside. I managed to negotiate with the girl I was going to go on a date with to meet up at 3:15pm. I then went home and completed the Machine Learning class quiz I had due at 1:00pm at 10:00am. I then had a phone interview for this defense company at 10:30am. It went well and they wanted to continue with me but I would have to drive 40 minutes in 1 direction in order to get to work, which meant begging my parents for access to one of their cars. I walked to the library to study there, I then went to my first class and there was one route that I was scared to take so I went the alternate route, I saw a friend of mine along the way and waived to him but he just looked at me scared so I just took the other route. and and just tried to distract myself, but at 1:01pm I got a reply back from Asherah’s boss saying:
<Thanks, Gemerson. It is a difficult day for us all to keep up with everything that is happening.
<Thank you again for your help setting up! I'm going to send a thank you to the full group later today.
So I just did all that worrying for a generic half-thought out email. I slogged through the test. I then went home and chilled out for a bit. I finally went to my date but she said that she was going to be a bit late. She said she was outside but I didn’t see her after a while so I walked around until I eventually found her and we went into a shop to get energy drinks. When we got in the shop I asked her:
“Do you want anything?”
She replied:
“No I’m fine.”
I then said:
“I’ll pay!”
She was still not happy:
“I’m fine!”
We then went upstairs and talked a bit, I had a half a can of beer, I managed to clutch it and she talked about her aunt trying to kidnap her from her mom because she only had 2 sons and wanted a daughter. She was from the Sheboygan area and had 2 siblings and 5 step-siblings on her dad’s side. At 3:55pm I had to get up to throw my can of Monster energy away and she suddenly got a call from her friend about an emergency and had to go (although she did say she had to end the date at 4:00pm) and we said goodbye. I then sent her this message on Snapchat:
>I had a good time on the date!
I went home and packed up for art class. I noticed her Snap score go up a few times, when I got into the art class the tables were all arranged to be 3 big tables. The teacher showed us this presentation on our final art piece and I noticed that I was the only one sitting in the middle table which made me feel worse. I just kept zoning out during the entire thing because I just hated myself. I wanted to leave at 5:30pm because I didn’t have any reason to stay when I felt like shit. But at 5:30pm the oldest guy in the class came in and sat next to me so I felt better and valued as a person. At 5:33pm I got a Snapchat message from the girl I went on a date with saying:
<I’m sorry I had to leave so soon. My friend called me with an emergency. I also had a good time
I replied with:
>Apology accepted
I was just spacing out throughout the art class and Ginger girl and her friend talking was really getting on my fucking nerves. At one point the teacher thought I was stuck so I just lied and said yeah. The art critique happened with Hoxha, Keleche, Pinky and the others and I was just zoning out then. I went home and found out that Angeleno had a new phone number because he texted me on it. I had a call with my mom where I explained why I wasn’t feeling so good and the whole issue with the time Asherah talked to James the Lesser directly about him being creepy towards her but she never directly told me how she views me and kept leaving me on the edge. My mom gave me some generic bullshit along the lines of:
“Nobody owes you an explanation!”
Which was actually just an attempt by the normies to shame me for desiring to be treated as an equal to them instead of bearing my pariah-marked status. I got so mad I just hung up mid conversation and turned on my Do Not Disturb so I couldn’t get notifications for her texts, I just browsed Instagram for a minute and then saw her texts and we had this conversation:
<Hey call me back
>I geniunely hate the way my former “friends” treat me so fucking much, I haven’t been invited out to anything but I used to and it’s making me super upset, plus I just want a concrete answer from Asherah if she even tolerates me or not. I hate how I’m just cursed and trapped in a cycle I can not escape.
<Is that what you told the therapist? That you feel like you keep having the same friend issue again and again?
>Not really. But I just hate living with a broken social contract where I’m punished for every minor transgression yet people are free to treat me like they want to without reprecussion.
<Why do you think you're being punished?
>Every single fuck up just makes my “friends” hate me more and they don’t even like me.
<What do you consider a 'fuck' up?
>Like a social faux pass, saying something wierd or hanging out too long with a ‘friend’
<Did you ever consider telling people that you're autistic and you have difficulties with relationships? Or ask them to tell you when you've gone overboard?
>A lot of people know, mostly indirectly but sometimes I directly told them. It doesn’t work, I kind of got mad at Asherah during the event she was at on Friday and I immediately regreted it afterwards and apologized to her. I also wrote her boss an apology email but you could tell in the way she wrote back she didn’t really care at all.
<Are you talking about these frustrations with your therapist?
>I haven’t had the opportuinity yet but I will tomorrow.
<Good, describe to her the situations that you find yourself. Ask her about coping strategies.
>I know she’s gonna suggest just asking any friend to hang out but I know it wont ever accept or just blow me off.
<Then push the discussion back to the core issues of what you think you want to work on.
<Maybe it's not in making friends, but in keeping friends. Is that it?
>I have already lost them all, I can’t make them re-appear.
<The intention is to learn from your past and give you the tools to go forward. Have you signed up for that adult autism group?
>I don’t have the time available for the group.
<It's On-line.
She then sent me the link for it at 7:00pm tomorrow
<Tomorrow night. Got any plans?
>Registered!
<Yay!
<Call me Wednesday night and let me know how it went. I love you Good night!
>Ok!!!
After taking a shower I then decided to post this image of Saint Michael the Archangel on my Instagram story just expecting people to realize something was wrong, to be precise:
Saint Michael the Archangel.jpgI
And so I posted it, after 5 minutes I got a notification that none other than Asherah herself liked it so I sent a screenshot of that with the message:
>Context?
She saw it an hour later and unliked it so I just felt super demotivated. Ithen went to sleep.

Song of the Day: The White Arcades - Harold Budd (1988)
 
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